Ramblings of a Perpetually Tanned Filipina

It feels like September once again. I have never felt so much pain like this since last year.One bucket is not enough for the tears I have shed out of a mistake that I have committed and I was very sorry for committing. It was a mistake not meant to offend but it did happen and it is something I promised to correct. What is more painful is when you are seen as someone who is not worth the forgiveness and someone who is no one else but mean and heartless. I am not denying the fact that I can be mean and heartless sometimes, but today is the last day in mind that I had any intentions of being mean or heartless. It was a mistake and I am regretful for what I have done. But maybe I am just not good enough to be forgiven. Maybe I have mean and heartless written all over my forehead 'coz I can certainly feel that now. Today I felt very much less of the person that I am. I felt like I am my own disappointment, that everytime I tried to divert my attention, the pain just crushes my heart.

Bags, just like my pair of shoes and piles of clothes, tend to fill my closet. I buy bags not just for comfort, but I also make sure that it suits my personality. I haven't been obsessing about bags for months now,until I saw this Kathy Van Zeeland bag today. I was trying to ignore it for two reasons: 1. I still have bags that I haven't used and are just sitting quietly inside my closet 2. It is not the normal bag I would buy that would cost me less than a thousand pesos. I was hesitant to buy it until I saw its uniqueness from the other bags I saw and I felt like the bag was calling me. It was letting me know that I need to get it. I felt like this bag wasn't the common brand I can see in stores that would sell fake stuff. I never knew what a Kathy Van Zeeland brand is in the first place. LOL! I never go for designer bags 'coz I think it's impra